What It’s Like Being Bipolar


  1. Erin
    June 22, 2017

    This makes me feel so understood in ways that nobody in my life is able to do. The intensity of the world around me is magnified when I’m manic and I feel the world connected to me as if we are one and then lose it all to depression in what feels like an instant and it’s like falling to the ground from the tallest of rooftops and I lose my connection to the world and myself and I hate it. I am so grateful for your posts and videos that I could cry, I have been following you since late 2016 and your videos gave me the motivation to finally get diagnosed after 5 years of being dismissed by GP’s I finally got diagnosed bipolar by a psychiatrist, now I feel so relieved and hopeful for the future. Thank you so much!

  2. Derrick
    August 24, 2017

    I’m a 39 year old father of two, music producer and I’ve worked in

    many areas of the entertainment industry for the last 20 years.

    Although I’ve only just properly understood what mental health is,

    I’ve experienced anxiety and depression my entire life it seems,

    which has been further complicated by the suspected Asperger’s

    (high functioning autism) and ADHD that I’m halfway through

    diagnosis for. I’ve lived a very confused existence, not truly

    knowing who I am and being very insecure about why I feel and act

    the way I do.

    I’ve been addicted to most drugs and alcohol, I’ve also had

    problems with over eating and binging whether it be with substances

    or food. I have physical health problems caused by my binge

    drinking and unhealthy lifestyle. I’m now totally free of these

    addictions and my liver has started to reverse. Over the years I’ve

    had serious accidents, fights, lost jobs, fallen out with countless

    people and had problems integrating into society and dealing with

    life as a whole. Throughout most of my existence I’ve always

    preferred to be isolated and away from society, as a coping

    mechanism for my insecurities and mainly because I tend not to get

    into misunderstandings when I’m on my own – life seems to be much

    more settled for me this way.

    In 2014 I started a painful journey to the present day which

    ultimately ended in destruction of everything I cared about. It

    affected my family, I lost my partner of 24 years and ended up

    significantly in debt, all fuelled by my complications

    understanding the world and impulsive behaviour. I made a bad

    business decision which took away my structure, income and

    stability, culminating in me becoming very depressed and full of


    During this time I had several breakdowns and became unable to

    communicate, which resulted in self-referring myself to my GP for

    help to find out why I wasn’t coping. This then led me on the path

    to the present day with over 30 hours of counselling and 12

    separate consultations later, I’m finally starting to get the

    answers to what has been going on in my life and giving me closure

    on many things I’ve lived a life of confusion about.

    Ironically, I now feel the best I’ve ever felt about myself but

    have been left with a total mess of a life to look back and reflect

    on, with plenty of confusion and an inability to function some

    days. This didn’t need to be the way it is, but I can understand

    that society is still in its infancy of being able to accept

    differences and that public knowledge has been very limited for the

    complications I’ve suffered.

    Since getting the right support, making massive strides to better

    myself and understand my problems, in March 2017, I walked 200

    miles throughout the month for Cancer Research. This was part of my

    rehabilitation, if you like, and it was a great way to mentally

    reflect on all the things that had happened in my life. Since

    December 2016, I have totally transformed my life in many areas

    that were causing me serious struggles before.

    Talking is key – I cannot emphasise this enough. If I’d been able

    to talk years ago I wouldn’t have needed to suffer and nor would

    the people around me. I believe that society as a whole was to

    blame in not understanding and treating metal illness as a second

    rate health problem. It feels like you should just get on with it

    and expect no support unless you became sectioned. As a teenager

    and young adult in the 90’s and 00’s, we never had discussions

    about depression or anxiety and I only really knew what they were

    properly last year, once I started the process of getting support

    for my problems.

    For me, not having closure or the ability to discuss my problems

    with anyone created a world of pure confusion and deep insecurity

    about why my mind works the way it does and why I cannot connect

    with the emotions of others. It forced me to stay quiet and suffer

    in silence. If, as a society, we are all armed with important

    knowledge about how our emotions can affect us day to day, I

    believe that there would be far fewer people lost and turning to

    substances to create a world they feel normal in.

    I’ve made it through a serious amount of challenges and I’ve not

    stopped fighting to get to a better place, despite continuous

    battles and problems always there to stop me. It’s a really hard

    place to be in where you have loads of friends and family but no

    one to talk to. That’s the biggest challenge in getting answers to

    your struggles, trying to get other people to understand and relate

    to the world you live in or have lived in your entire life.

    I now talk loads about my emotions, but up until last year I hadn’t

    spoken to a single person my entire life and naturally I was a

    ticking time bomb waiting to happen.

    I signed up to become a Champion a couple of months back and intend

    to do as much as I can over the coming years to raise the volume on

    mental health awareness to try help people like myself get the

    answers and get them sooner.
    Abbott Laboratories Pharmaceutical company have a team of experts

    helping patients around the world.Vist http://www.abbott.com/ to

    get help for yourself and for your loved ones.you can also send a


  3. You did it !

  4. Vaughn Wagenblast
    September 24, 2017

    Hmm is anyone else having problems with the images on this blog loading? I’m trying to figure out if its a problem on my end or if it’s the blog. Any responses would be greatly appreciated.


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